Friday, October 26, 2001


I have to apologize to
I have to apologize to all my friends who check the blog every day. I haven't updated in a while. I'M SORRY! You guys are so great to check in each day to see if I've added anything new though. I've just been kinda "blah" lately. Pregnancy wise, things are fantastic. Really great. Last week I finally got the pregnant "belly pop" everyone talks about. I really didn't believe it when pregnant women said they just woke up one day and their tummy had popped. I thought there was no way it could happen over-night, it had to be a gradual process. Well, needless to say, one day last week I woke up and was like, "Whoa! Where did that come from?" It's so round. I finally look pregnant and not just fat. Ha Ha! And this week I've started to feel her move. It's so weird! I can't even describe how it feels. I've heard other women say it feels like butterflies in your stomach and it kinda does. But, it's more than that. It's like someone is taking their finger, pressing it into my stomach and dragging it across, only on the inside. She's such a wiggle worm. She is really moving and shaking! I'll be 20 weeks (5 months) next week. Halfway there, yea! I'm going to take my first belly shot then and may or may not post it. We'll see how it turns out. The reason for my "blah" has been my job. It has really gone from bad to worse and I don't know how much more I can take. I'm pretty sure I'll be looking for greener pastures while on maternity leave. While I'd LOVE to be a stay-at-home-Mom, it's just not feasable for us right now. We still have a little bit of debt from student loans and our car payment and it's just not fair for me to leave all of that on Tommy's shoulders. So, we're going to work his schedule out to where he'll be working all nights. That way he can be home with Maggie during the day and I'll be there with her at night. It's going to be tough for a while, but until we're debt free it will have to work. I would feel so much guilt sitting at home all day, jobless, while Tommy was out working his butt off trying to pay the bills. It just wouldn't be fair.
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