Thursday, September 13, 2001


I still don't think any
I still don't think any of this is sinking in with me at all. I watch the same news reels over and over. I almost feel "desensitized" to it, or even numb. I really don't think the full severity of it has hit me yet. You'd think being a pregnant women, I would have cried a thousand times by now. I'm sure, in a while though, it will all hit me at once and I'll break down. I just don't think I'm ready to do all that right now. Baby wise, I'm great. I'm conciously trying to stay calm and just "chill out". I think I can tell a difference. My appetite is coming back around too, sometimes. I've been feeling tired this week too, but I think that's more due to the weeks events than anything. I pray until I can't think of words to say. I find myself thinking about all throughout the day at work. The whole thing is really just wearing me out. And I think, one day my baby is going to ask me where I was when I heard the news, just like I asked my Mom where she was when Kennedy was shot. And then, I can tell him or her that I was in the car, coming home from my second "baby" checkup.
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Wednesday, September 12, 2001


I'm having a better, certainly
I'm having a better, certainly calmer day now. I felt sick and so upset last night when I got home from work. I basically plopped down on the couch, covered up with a blanket and tried to chill out. Tommy cooked dinner and took care of the boys (the dogs). And I just vegged on the couch, being bombarded with scene after scene of tragedy on my television. I'd seen all the pictures over and over and over again and it still didn't seem they were real. I think every single Amercian has a long road of recovery ahead of them. As we wade through the fear, the anger, the shock, and disbelief I pray that we can all come to terms with this. And move forward as a stronger nation.
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Tuesday, September 11, 2001


Just got back from the
Just got back from the DR this morning. It was a good news/bad news kind of visit. All the test they ran last visit all came out great. And the exam went well too. The mid-wife said my uterus is growing just they way it should, and things are looking great. The bad news is that my blood pressure is high and they're concerned about it. The midwife consulted with the doctor to see if they needed to do some urine test. He said it was too soon now, and not to worry. We want to go with a midwife so bad and she said that if my blood pressure continues to go up, I may need to be put on medication and would have to have a doctor deliver instead of a midwife because I would be high-risk. That's a little disappointing. We'll see though, maybe it won't go up that much. I only gained like 1 and a half to 2 pounds. Due largly inpart to my total nausea the first tri-mester. But, there's no looking back now, I'm hungry a lot more frequently now. My next visit is on Wedensday, October 3rd, when I'll have the sonogram. So, fingers crossed, we'll know the sex in 3 weeks! That's all for now. I have so much on my mind in light of todays news. I'm very scared. MOST ALL of my family is in Woodbridge, VA which is right outside Washington, DC. Aunt Wanda is at the Pentagon. I can't get a hold of anyone. Phones are down. The message said, "The area you are trying to call is unavailable because of the tornado." Guess they didn't have a message that said, "is unavailable because of the terrorist attacks." so they threw the tornado one on there.
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